Holidays

Sentimental as I feel . I see my children grow every Christmas. I always want to fulfill their wishes and never care of my own. I want to hold on to every smell, detail and taste from this season. The memories of warmth and love all around, silly traditions surpass all. I feel time robbing me of my soul daily, I want to have happiness and not fear whats ahead. But that unconditional love turns into what I have is what I can lose. So I put my heart into food I cook for my children and extra time for them to remember me positively ( I hope)

It is hard to have a partial broken family. I know it must be confusing. My time away from them always humbles me . Why I quit a salary job to go to part time work was for them. I saw me becoming a mother who was never there . This has turned into a rambling off subject blog but my brain is so scrambled by seasonal greetings that I cannot reassemble. Happy New Year .