Pay your bills.

Pressure. Pressure Pressure. Be better be faster be bolder be thinner. Be.
If you don't respond quickly you disappear, if you make one mistake it ends your career falling at the bottom of the ditch don't bitch or drop the pitch, looks are can and will be deceiving cover ups can be relieving.
Will you make enough to afford that exotic trip to the grocery store, have some processed meat and cheese in your cart to feed your score of dependents? No stamps for you , no insurance for you ,work harder afford nothing pay more pay more. All the time you could enjoy is destroyed by employ.. will you ever be free?

Put the beer down.

hate hate hate, all i hear and see around, noise anger echoes engines. Constant mind scattering scraping sounds flow through me and I cannot pull out this hair that provokes me. I have numbed my mind by BAC . Instead of facing and looking at me. I flee. I destroy all that surrounds me when I pour a drink . My career is going in the toilet not the sink. Love scares me into self loathing. I must let go of my damage before it's irreversible.