the whole thing

Lately my thing has been seeking solitude from everyone and everything . I find myself saying no when the phone rings and I listen to it with its urgency . I do not wander what the favor or voice on the other end is saying, I dread the sounds of the desperation to share the latest bullshit gossip in this nasty town of critic. I do not want to hurt you my friend, I just need to distance myself from the feeling of hatred that may be growing in my heart. It is not your fault things spill and brains scatter . I need to be alone, and wonder silently if I have angered you hurt you or affected your life in a negative way. I cannot get any more soaked into society , I absorb into the ground with each breath and I want to dry up again.